Morning

It's 5 Min Friday again. This time the prompt is morning.

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I am not a real morning person. Even though I go to bed early and have to wake up early. Mostly I sleep about 8 hours and that just about 1 or 2 hours too short for me. I need lots of sleep I guess and no matter in trying to train myself every time a little less sleep, it never works and I am only feeling bad, worse, worst.
I am a breakfast person though, I never really can get going without breakfast. Mostly it's only bread with first a cup of tea and later some coffee if I have enough time. Because mornings are mostly full of rush and hurry up, or at least in the world in which I live in. And I am not that quick in the morning.
Mornings also mean a fresh new start of the day. A new start to give your life and your thoughts and your ways a boost. An opportunity to forget yesterday and all it's troubles and to start over at the fresh clean sheet. Mornings are like pieces of white paper; clean, fresh, not written on, full of endless possibilities. It is your choice what you write down; negative of positive things. It has a big impact on you, how you feel, how you ARE, who is YOU.

I have to confess I only wanted to upload 5 min Friday  when I had a good photo to go with it, so I quickly took some shots for breakfast. I didn't have much to add more texture or color into it, but this one I liked a lot. So guess I also use the prompts to be creative in image not only writing.

* Forget or Remember *

How can I forget you when my world is breaking down. You're all I have, 

you're all I want.... Those are the first words that come to my mind when 

I read the word Forget. It's a song by Abba 

sung by Agnetha Faltskog and it's one of my favorites.

At this moment I don't know if I want to forget about him and all my 

memories I have of him or if I want to remember all that we had and did 

and hang to it for dear life. I am at the a crossroad. One moment I want to 

relish in the memories of happier days together and the next I am totally 

pissed at him for being such an asshole and throwing away all the good 

we had. Also the bad, but hey it cannot all be moons and roses. That's life 

together as well. 

Remembering means holding on and sometimes holding on to something is 

more hurting than letting go. Holding on to someone who doesn't love you 

is useless. The act of loving it self isn't useless, it's the most precious 

emotion people can feel and express. What brings joy and makes you feel 

alive in every small part of you body.

Forgetting means moving forward with my life and my head knows it's the 

best thing to do, if he wants he will return. If not it's simply not meant to be. 

I also read that even if you want something really badly you still don't get it, 

because something better is waiting for you. 

So that's something good and positive to focus on. Let's keep on doing that.


My entry for this weeks 5 min Friday; write for 5 minutes, no editing. 

* Limit - 5 min Friday *

This week's prompt for 5 min Friday is limit.

I have limited myself in believing very firmly in what I can do and can't do. And I want to stop that. I want to believe there is no limit in what I can achieve in life if I really want to. The truth is if you believe you can you are half way there. There is so much to do so much to learn. There is enough for everybody to do to share to enjoy. There is no need to limit yourself by comparing to others. Okay, you may not be there yet, but that's also ok. Growing is a proces an ongoing proces. Just keep an open mind, try something new, put your fears behind you. Believe in yourself, don't let other people's opions or negative gossip or anything else put you down. Keep trying, keep growing. Even the tiniest step you make is still progress...

While on the other hand, I keep giving people everything I can and can do. Never put myself first. I have stepped over my line, my limit all to often. This is part of me and who I am, but I don't want to keeping doing this because it's not healthy for myself. I have to take care of me first, than others come.

* focussing on the positive *

Again Friday came and went away, I had no time to write the previous week for 5 min friday. So I am writing it now.

Go:

Focus on the best part of your life instead of the worst. Everything you give your attention grows. If you focus to much on the parts in your life you don't like it will go in power and strength until it overwelms you. Try instead to focus on everything you love, everything that makes you smile. Even if it's as small as a morning coffee, birds whistling, the smell of fresh mown grass. Currently I am working hard on to following my own advise. I will admit it's not Always easy, but as goes with everything practise makes perfect. But who needs perfect anyway?

The other part of focussing is the meaning it gives to me for photography. Aim the camera, focus and push and the click resonates in the air.
Slowly I am trying my hand at it. I have loved it in the past. Hopefully not everything has died along with the depression. But I am still not feeling it. It gives no pleasure like before. I don't fall in love with a photo I took like I used to before. But as with everything, time heals. Just keep trying, push yourself forward but all with in reason and what feels ok. Not good, not perfect, not bliss, but OK the rest will come in sweet time.

* Quiet *

Again it's Five Minute Friday time! I checked the promp on Twitter Thursday already so I had some more time to think on it and plan my photo around the them. Now is the case that this photo is in my head for weeks already, so it was about high time to get this shot.

 

So here goes:

I am and have Always been a quiet person. An introvert, not staying in the front row. Not much of a talker either. I leave that to other persons, mostly much better at it than me. I like the quiet, the still, the time alone with my own thinking and wondering. Enjoying music, enjoying a good read, enjoying still life photography, enjoying walks or bike rides, enjoying breathing in the Woods, enjoying nature and flowers, enjoying surfing the internet and reading and learning new things. It's amazing.
Quiet doesn't mean boring, or alone or lonesome. The quiet is bringing peace to mind and soul. Time to recharge the batteries again. So you can go about into the world with energy.
Now being ill, I am definitively planning more quiet me time. Simply because I need it and do better on it.

I start to enjoy this weekly writing. Still struggling to find words and text and fill the 5 minutes. But keep on trying :)

* Letting go in 2016 *

 

I was inspired a lot by a recent posting of Marc and Angel it really spoke to me and I want the new year to be the start I need to live a life less complicated and stressed and worried. So I decided to make something solid to help me remind whenever I need it.

The size is ok to print out for those who want :)

 

Sources: Creative Market, miumi-u-stock,

beorange, photo by me 

* Happy 2016 * One Little Word 2016 *

Happy New Year!

 

It has been very very long time ago since I last blogged. And every year, at the end of the year, I think I will do it more regulairy the new year. So I also did this year :) We will see how it goes.

 

 

I found the word Lovingly as my One little word for 2016.

The story behind my word; last year was a big struggle with being in depression and burn out of which I am still recovering. Depression was getting me more and more tighter in it's hold until I didn't know any better than feeling like I did. Now I have the choice to keep in this pattern or keep fighting hard and harder against it. Do I want to stay bitter or do I let love again in my hard. I want to be more lovingly. Towards people. Which I haven't been the kindest and nicest of most fun person to be around the last year. But also more lovingly towards myself. Respect who I am, what I stand for. Love myself as I am while I work hard to get better and work hard to improve myself. So I was thinking on lovingly thinking, behavior and such and than it struck me as I read Ali's blog that this was my Little word. (I had totally forgotten about it before)

 

Cheers to the new year!!

* Healthy food *

My entry for this weeks Texture Tuesday over at Kim Klassen.

Did a shoot today with food and later it turned in my evening meal :) Tasted good. Lots of vegatables.

I edited it in Elements and added carol and subtlyyours to the image at soft light and masked some out on the plate.

* Heritage *

This weeks challenge is heritage. Love how this one turned out.
It's my grandma's necklace which I have been wearing for years as a good luck charm.

* Texture Tuesday *

This weeks theme is color pop over at Texture Tuesday.
I very much enjoyed the fresh spring colors of the flowers. All is so dark these days in the winter.
I used Minus 45 and ugglovesepia.

* photochallenge 52-2013 week 3 & 4 *

I missed week 3 earlier because I was ill, but I wanted to take the shot any way.
Subject was minimalism.

Subject of week 4 is Winter. Too bad the snow is gone over here, but I managed to get another shot which I think is also quite fitting for winter. Luckily I was at the right time at the right place in order to get this photo :)

* Week 4 photochallenge *

I am following several challenges at once and I have to say I pick the theme that fits me most :) This time I choose bare. Unfortunately I didn't have any time to go out to photograph this week. So I used the camera on my mobile phone to take this shot. Normally it isn't up to my standards but I dediced to embrace it and go with it after all :)

(Slightly edited in Photoshop elements)
Enjoy your sunday

* food *

Last weeks theme was food.... first I wasn't too happy with the result, I think I can do better.
But now I like the outcome of it.

* Texture Tuesday *

It's playtime again :) This weeks theme is cuppa. And I happen to have a lot of photo's on my harddrive of my favorite coffee of this moment, cappuccino. So I was happy to use one of those photo's combined with layers from Kim confidence, marabella and cherishedscripted.

And I combined it with a saying which I really love.

* Project 52 - 2013 week 2 & 3 *

Yes, already a little behind in my weekly home shots. But I am making it up.
Here's week 2...

 

.... and week 3.

* weekly photochallenge *

This week the challenge for 52 photochallenges is ICON. First I wanted to go with APPLE but then I decided that I could be more creative with GROLSCH. I have tried many options. This one I like best, but I don't think it's that creative. So I need to improve on that factor :)

 

* Project 52 *

Happy new year! Happy 2013.

I am trying a new project this. One of many as a matter of fact :)
This year I am trying a photo each week shot at home. Inspired by Elsie from a beautiful mess who is doing this daily. However that's to much for me. I already tried Project 365 every day a photo. I managed to keep it up a year, but it's not for me anymore...

Soooo trying to make a photo each week seems more do-able and I want to improve my phogography skills...

* Day out: Zwolle *

Yesterday I went to Zwolle. I had never been there and wanted to go to do some shopping and sightseeing. At first I saw only the market and though, is this it? Then I go home right away. But I did some strolling around and saw some nice shops, great old buildings, the remains of the city wall,  the Gaper, the church, ships and water. It was a lovely day.

Below a small impression of the almost 200 (!) photo's I took that day. Because I had to travel a long time by train, I didn't bring my Nikon, but only my point and shoot. I am quite pleased with how the photo's turned out. Even in the church with no flash, the results are quite acceptable.

* Summer fest *

Last Sunday I went to a summer fest which is a rather big happening here with a big procession.
It was very hot, really the beginning of summer. I took over 500 pictures, below a very small impression of a great day.

Today it's 34 degrees over here. Verrry hot. Don't like it one bit. But there is bad weather coming up with thunderstorm so it should be cooling down tomorrow.

Just hanging in there.

* Texture Tuesday *

Tuesday came and went and I was too ill to do something on this weeks challenge of Texture Tuesday. Thankfully it's a quick and easy challenge and you can use any image you want. So I used a shot of a rose. Shot on one of my walks with a point and shoot camera.

I used the following textures of Kim: Just cause, sweettart & the latest one Mayzee.